hey!
It has been a year and few days since I left this space,life was good ,part and puzzle of life , challenges after challenges..its indeed a tough yr preparing A for UPSR and today we have got the result, it is not up to expectation but at list w no C.
A, you can do better than this!u just need to change your mind set, your will power is not strong,you have to build confidence , am here to support..come on son, even in your squash, do not easily give up, try till your final sweat and please do not feel satisfy when you are only half way through it..please listen for your own sake, i do not want you to lead a life like me, i will continue to pray for you and M as I have only you two in this world, you will remain precious no matter what happen!
M, I fought for her to get a seat in Genius Aulad and I did it! guessed she enjoyed the school as this is her 1st yr,cranky in the morning is something that every mom will face...but she was removed from the school by the cruel F without discussing with me and the makcik hitam gemuk is cohorting with him.I was pissed off when I learnt about that.Hope Allah will have mercy on him for taken away my right or intentionally to hurt me . M was transfered in Sept to a DBKL funded kindy.the reason of transfer was a silly one!-transport problem..its ok M, mom believes in you. study and play smart my dear princess, sure success will come your way.
As promised,right after UPSR in early Oct,three of us headed to JB and SG for a break, we enjoyed the quality time together and am happy and proud of myself for able to cheer them with the short trip.Looking forward for more trips with you guys...
Nov 15,it shocked me to learn that he its moving back to PEN for good. This is totally unacceptable!!!!without consulting me!!he does not follow what was agreed upon..coward loser guy..May Allah has mercy on him to freak me with this news..am thinking of fighting for hadanah for M so that on papers, M is legally under my care ,i think i should make his life terrible too since no one is supporting me interms of talking to him or atlist shout at him so that he can come to his sensus that this country is governed by law and he cant simply do things!!!
Am still thingking and will act accordingly, I should fight for some justice for myself and for my precious ones too.. he is not fit to take care of the kids, even his family!!!
A & M,you will never understand why all these need to happen ,maybe you will when you have grown up to be good adult.Just bear in mind,i love you too and will always will, i will take care of your needs so long am fit to do so.This will remain my problems and i will deal with it like i did since the day one.
At work,I was awarded country manager first choice award , 1st class award for the employee for a piece a great job done,for my case, it was a problem turned opportunity, to me, i think i deserved it as i have been working hard all these years for the company and its my turn to be awarded. great sum RM95K.Really a wow! its for you kids!
All in all, a very great and filled year...hope that next yr is a better yr!
Till then....
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Nov 12,2010
hey,
it has been sometime....unsure if i should continue to blog or leave it as it is... nothing much to update, life goes on, the ups and downs,,, as long as am able to be with the kids,nothing else is more important to me than having them around, though for a limited time..though with a lot of shouting asking them to do things but still worth it..
We had just celebrated M 4th bday on 06/00/10, i hosted a small party for her back at home with a lovely princess cake,a few homemade items,,tiring but i enjoyed and puas to be able to do this to her, my little angel.
it has been sometime....unsure if i should continue to blog or leave it as it is... nothing much to update, life goes on, the ups and downs,,, as long as am able to be with the kids,nothing else is more important to me than having them around, though for a limited time..though with a lot of shouting asking them to do things but still worth it..
We had just celebrated M 4th bday on 06/00/10, i hosted a small party for her back at home with a lovely princess cake,a few homemade items,,tiring but i enjoyed and puas to be able to do this to her, my little angel.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
1st day of Syawal
Actually not much excitement in me for this year raya, all i think is for the kids and of course my duty as a muslim to celebrate this victory after a month long of fasting.
no plans were made,i really leave it to Allah.i performed my sunat hari raya prayers,then put on my baju raya(rm150 for 3 pcs, not bad rite),gathered the kids,they were also in new clothing and in raya mood. A has grown taller from me and handsome in his purple baju melayu,M too. Mum decided to stay with me which i have no objection at all.Had some photos session,kids seek forgiveness from me and myself from mum.everything was fine.
Deep in me,i hate thinking of any emosional situation to happen , no way and during this raya.
Then,kids wanted a dip in the swimming pool especially M.At 2pm, Sis called and asking if we wanted to go Bkt Gedung, all i think is only A & M,A was excited to meet the cousinds and to collect duit raya,so my answer is up to you.
Ding dong!
The moment of truth....they came,kak ano sefamily and BA, my heart was pumping fast,i was keeping the coolest i can,acted like nothing had happened,busy myself to wash the dishes..then suddenly,yeah,,,people changed,Allah has it better plan for us..she came and embraced me,in split second,i also went to her and we were hugging each other..tears brimming in my eyes but i quickly wiped off. It has been a year plus that i did not contact her,during this time last raya, i was in Sabah holidaying and bawa diri.The pain that i went through was too much and unbearable.
We left the apartment to dad's grave,then visited 3 uncles,the usual trip that we will do everytime Syawal comes by..
till then
no plans were made,i really leave it to Allah.i performed my sunat hari raya prayers,then put on my baju raya(rm150 for 3 pcs, not bad rite),gathered the kids,they were also in new clothing and in raya mood. A has grown taller from me and handsome in his purple baju melayu,M too. Mum decided to stay with me which i have no objection at all.Had some photos session,kids seek forgiveness from me and myself from mum.everything was fine.
Deep in me,i hate thinking of any emosional situation to happen , no way and during this raya.
Then,kids wanted a dip in the swimming pool especially M.At 2pm, Sis called and asking if we wanted to go Bkt Gedung, all i think is only A & M,A was excited to meet the cousinds and to collect duit raya,so my answer is up to you.
Ding dong!
The moment of truth....they came,kak ano sefamily and BA, my heart was pumping fast,i was keeping the coolest i can,acted like nothing had happened,busy myself to wash the dishes..then suddenly,yeah,,,people changed,Allah has it better plan for us..she came and embraced me,in split second,i also went to her and we were hugging each other..tears brimming in my eyes but i quickly wiped off. It has been a year plus that i did not contact her,during this time last raya, i was in Sabah holidaying and bawa diri.The pain that i went through was too much and unbearable.
We left the apartment to dad's grave,then visited 3 uncles,the usual trip that we will do everytime Syawal comes by..
till then
SYAWAL 2010
A day before Syawal,me and kids took a flight for our balik kampung trip,(this is so called my turn to hari raya with kids) before that,preparation were as usual, buying cake,cookies,rendang .preparation for kids was made earlier before Ramadhan,duit raya and all other money matters.that is me,things are planned a head...to avoid clashes and pening kepala..i still doing the same thing like what i did before ever since i had A. Its all about the kids..the unsual thing is only my family is now shrinked to 3 from 4,balik kampung not to a home or rumah kampung but to a serviced apartment..well ,life goes on,no need to fear for the future, Allah is always with me,i must only have faith in Him.
No one knows or feels what i went through, very easy to pin point but doubt if this happened to anyone else,they can take it and handle it as cool as me..but the scars are everywhere,that i cant guarantee will fade.
Kids are ok,believed with the help from Allah, the should be able to face this as another challenging episode in thier life.
I will never leave them as they are the most precious,the greatest and valuable gifts from Allah to me.
No one knows or feels what i went through, very easy to pin point but doubt if this happened to anyone else,they can take it and handle it as cool as me..but the scars are everywhere,that i cant guarantee will fade.
Kids are ok,believed with the help from Allah, the should be able to face this as another challenging episode in thier life.
I will never leave them as they are the most precious,the greatest and valuable gifts from Allah to me.
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